My Chinese New Year...

Well, it's about a month I didn't write eh?

Freaking hell,

Really I thought to write everything that happened in my life,

Starting from my final dead year of examinations till the end of Chinese New Year & of my finals,

I did study for my papers, of course, God knows what level I'm,

Then, after three papers that ended on 16th Jan 09,

We got a short break for Chinese New Year,

Now this maybe not normal but it is normal for people like me,

I hate Chinese New Year,

No no no,

I don't hate the holidays for it,

I only hate seeing and visiting my relatives,

Then, I'm also...

Lazy to answer their out-of-the-blue-questions,

Lazy to get up early, to disturb my good sleep,

Lazy to wipe and clean the altar,

Lazy to follow the traditions,

But I don't despise much of those things I'm lazy to do than having me to get my ass up to pay my lovely visits to the relatives who are far from being enlisted in my Top 10 of Yuki's Favorite People,

Hell, maybe not even in my Top 50 or 100,

Yea, yea, yea...

I know I need to keep in touch with them,

For my generations' sakes,

First, I hate cleaning or washing things,

I don't do much of house works,

I dislike people telling me to do and not to do whatever stuffs,

Even Lucifer knows how strong is my hatred for being commanded and controlled,

AND STRONGER,

When those people are the ones that I HATE,

Every time,

I respect my mom's decision and force myself to suck it up,

To join a dinner with the relatives in a my uncle's house,

This uncle is my dad's younger brother,

My dads' siblings are all conservative type,

But strange it is, my dad is not all conservative,

Okay here's the main point,

Whenever we, yes my family goes to my uncle's household,

We, the WOMEN, must help out to prepare the dinner,

Like, serving, placing the plates, bowls, chopsticks (Yea we MUST use chopsticks, I'm pro in it, thanks to them), chairs and other stuffs,

While the MEN are relaxing, chatting, sitting and shaking their dicks in the living room,

After the dinner, we, the WOMEN have clean up everything,

Including washing the dishes of course, and somehow I don't know why,

Why my DEAREST uncle insists that we need to wipe the plates, chopsticks, Chinese spoons, bowls and stuffs with dry towels,

Can't it not let them dry cleaning itself in a natural way?

My God,

I feel it is sooooo unfair to have vagina and boobs just by spending short time with my LOVELIEST uncle,

They, my dad's younger brother and eldest sister lovessss my eldest brother soooooo much,

They treat my brother like their own son,

Well, can't blame them,

In a nice way, the first reason is that,

My brother has spent most of his childhood time with them,

And my grandma loved him much too,

The second reason is that he was the first baby and is still willing to socialize with them even though he is a grown upper,

But in cruel way of saying,

It is because he has a cock to produce child and spread the family's sur name,

The Chinese way huh?

Alright,

Another point that I dislike and like Chinese New Year is that it is like me begging extra pocket money from the married adults,

The wise says that receiving red envelopes or angpaus is like receiving blessings from the people who gives them,

But I don't know why it includes offering money,

Well, it's not like I don't like money,

I will be very happy to take it in free will and in no condition,

Next point again,

In Chinese New Year, the Chinese will buy loads of worshipping things, like candles or fruits,

They wish for health, wealth, successful ness, happiness, wisdom, safeness, good lucks, long life and other stuffs,

Sometimes I feel these are all very selfish wishes,

It also drive people crazy and doing unwise deeds,

Example?

Sure, I love gossiping,

My mom had a good friend, who I called her Auntie Fung Yi,

I like her, she's nice and friendly, with a loving heart too,

She caught sickness, I think it was breast cancer or something related,

But she gone through treatments and surgeries and claimed back her health,

She lives with her lovely hubby and grown up children with grand kids too,

Sadly, her hubby passed away because of a heart failure, I guess, in this year just before Chinese New Year,

Her relatives or her hubby relatives didn't attend her hubby's funeral,

It is heartbreaking and cruel stuff to decline to attend your close relatives' funerals,

Especially if it is your sibling's funeral,

Her hubby's brothers or sisters didn't show up, which caused the Always Happy Auntie Fung Yi degraded into Upset and Crying Auntie Fung Yi,

I heard my mom said she cried her lungs out everyday after the incident,

Both for her hubby's death and the relatives' coldness,

The Chinese believes that attending a funeral before or on Chinese New Year period will cause them bad lucks and misfortunes,

I'm not a Chinese who follows every belief or tradition,

I only believe in necessary things and know what shall I do and don't,

Whether I want or not, I shall take part in any funerals that I shall be attending...if there's any...

It is because I know it is a proper thinking and good deed,

I don't believe in having or getting any misfortunes just by attending your dear families' or relatives' funerals....

Even if I do get some...I cannot disobey my heart's order and I wouldn't and couldn't hurt someone whose her loved one has gone to the Light,

I don't know why,

Did not the Chinese bibles teach good wills to the human?

How can those human rather believing into the bullshits of misfortune than to attend their relatives funeral to bid final farewell?

I don't understand,

Human is just so despicable sometimes,

Even myself is very like a bitch sometimes,

I know, I know,

Humans nature is it?

Imperfect and unpredictable,

Somehow unique and adorable,

Bollocks!

After Chinese New Year,

I got back to my finals,

I was in stress and glad that it was over,

Unfortunately, I can only rest few days before starting the internships,

Which I need to go to some travel agency for industrial training,

Hopefully that I can do it in a smooth way and no causing any troubles,

Hopefully also that I will pass my every paper and graduate quietly,

Then I will be entering a different life style and spend some years being young adult and hopefully again and again that this time whatever happens, it will be a wonderful white knight arriving on my door step if the wheel really it want to happen.

I wish none of wicked rich bastards with foul personalities and customs,

I only open to the fair, tall, gentle and attractive man with the willingness to do good deeds, nice personalities and customs,

My working days will start from today,

12th Feb 09,

9 AM- 6 PM,

Weekdays,

Valentine's Day is coming soon,

I don't have anyone to give chocolates to,

Well I don't mind receiving some...

Hehehee...