Sad.

Dear bloggie,

I think of resigning from my job...I not sure if I can hold on doing this anymore.
I can hold on because there's nothing much to do anyway.
It's just the money issue.

I want to find other things to do even if it means working weekend or shifts.
I'm bored and angry with things around me.
But when I heard of one of the colleague is diagnosed with blood cancer...
I went, 'oh my...no way'
She is my age, younger than me few months.

I suddenly think maybe my life's sucks but hers, I think worse than mine to be compared.
Maybe I should not take things for granted, but as you know, that's human nature.

Human, at least, like me.
Keep chasing for perfect things and wish money will just fall from the skies...
Lazy and ungrateful sometimes. (most of the times maybe)

I hope and really wish to pray hard for my colleague here.
She has so much to go on, so she really cannot give up.
And we too, cannot give up and must encourage her to fight.
Think positively.
That's easy to say rather than action.

Because when I put myself into her shoes.
I'd be very very very devastated.
Might even gave up in the first place before fighting for anything.
It is really really heart breaking, even more heart breaking than getting played or dumped by a guy.
It's more like mentally dying...

I hope, really hope that God will not be so cruel to her.
And please shine a light for her.
As she's such happy-go-lucky and innocent girl.
Again, she's still got so much more to go.

Life is hard for everyone.
Life is harder for the sick people.
Maybe even harder for God.

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