Hello?
It's hard for me to type now via mobile browser.
Anyway...
I think other than having few misfits few days ago,
I think I've finally received some good happenings.
The 7th step?
I took it.
Well I do think this is going well.
Better much if we ain't face to face too.
Gaming with another person is fun, especially when this certain person is kind of important to you.
He brought me a box of edible souvenir during his outstation work.
Wow.
So he does think of me?
So is this what people say about 'showing effort'?
Sorry, I'm a little bit crazy and mentally exhausted,
Because of my friends (also colleagues) used my FB on my hp to like this guy's FB pictures...
When I was busy karaoke-ing...
Stuffs that your GOOD FRIENDS do to you...
Oh my fucking god.
I was raging internally.
But yeah I know it's okay for you,
Those pictures were taken and uploaded on year 2014 or 2013...
I just don't like him to think that I'm a crazy stalker...
Seriously.
I was pissed because how dare they did those little moves behind my back.
It damages my pride as a woman.
Yes unfortunately, I do very much care what people think of me.
Embarrassment kills me.
And also I was supposed to meet him later...
My composure was shattered completely.
Because I fear it might affects how he thinks of me...
Bah.
Even he himself thought it was me who liked those pictures.
Fuck my life.
And yeah,
I go crazy for every little thing.
Big or small matters are still matters to me.
So okay.
We just dined together and enjoyed the porky food.
I hope he liked them lol.
And chated awhile...
Sometimes my mind went blank and I'd stare at one or few places...
So he did ask me what's going on,
And when I said nothing, he doesn't believe me.
The phrase of; When a girl says nothing, it means there's something."
Man.
I was really spacing out and didn't even know what was I thinking of.
I would tell if I did.
I was actually thinking of how do they make the yummy sloppy french fries and why is the world so round and then spaced out in bliss.
End of the 'date' time,
I do feel hard to part ways but yeah I won't ever tell him that.
How can I feel so intimidated by this...feeling?
Ya ya I know.
Patience and chill.
But yeah I know damn well that I'm being very patient and crazy at the same time.
I guess I will always be the one pouring out hints in the end of every 'date'.
But you know what.
I don't actually mind doing that at all.
As long as he does respond and react to it...
"How do you know if another person is paying attention on you?"
"You won't...unless you did the same."
