I'm A Perv.

Please.

Just.

Laugh.

I'm sorry that I really have to say that I'm a pervert.

Ha.

Who's here don't have any pervert thoughts before?

Admit it.

You have.

Ha-ha.

Ah, well.

Pervert (noun) means;

A person who lacks morals.

A person who practices sexual perversion.

Pathology. a person affected with perversion.

Or as (verb);

A twist, turn away from what is acceptable or correct

Is it?

I don't know.

But. I'm sure I use pervert (noun) often.

Maybe I'm entering into maturity or what.

If you don't know me, you might think I'm crazy right now.

Hell,

I AM crazy.

Yet, I'm not that pervert, you know?

I'm just a normal old teenager/young adult, who's entering into adulthood in just 26 days.

I also have dreams and wishes.

Things that I want it to happen in my life.

I don't know since when I've became desperate.

I'm tired of being a 'I don't care' person.

Honestly, I care things too much and am afraid to let the others know.

I think some of them already saw through me.

Damn.

So embarrassing.

Recently, my mother is already pressuring me...

I knew sooner or later she will ask it...

My mom was looking at my leg.

I asked her. "What are you looking at?"

"Your foot's skin is smoother than mine." she commented.

"Of course, mine is, because I'm only 20. What do you expect?"

She sighed.

"I'll also be like you when I'm your age later," I continued.

"Why don't you find a partner while your skin is still beautiful?"

Merde.

I said, "Mom, you think it's so easy to just find someone?"

Smiling as she always did, "That's why you must take a job and search some one who's suitable at the workplace,"

"No, those guys are hopeless,"

She turned and looked at me, "What hopeless? If that man has a job and money, then it's good."

It was my turn to sigh, "Mom, I can hardly find a guy taller than me, needless to say that most of the tall guys are already taken. And, their girlfriends are all shorty."

Mom threw her head back and laughed.

I growled at her.

"Mom, you see. I like a guy but that guy doesn't like me in return. Even if he does, it won't mean that we're compatible until we'll have a long lasting relationship."

The conversation ended like that.

Jezz...

What a ridiculous excuse...

A man.

A guy.

Or whatever.

As long as he has his manhood.

Packaged with a career and education.

My mother will surely give him or me a 'thumb up'.

I'm getting 21 soon.

Can I stop aging at 21?

Pretty please?

Sigh.

Have I ever told you all that I dislike small 'portion'?

Have you ever felt that you want to touch some one's abdomen so badly?

Have you ever wanted to brush some one's hair, cheeks, palms or any parts of that some one's?

Have you ever thought that that some one smells really good and wish to snuggle closer and hold that some one tightly, never letting go?

Have you ever imagined things that's beyond imagination with that some one?

It's hard to find such guy that will make me feel such feelings.

I'm not complaining.

Okay.

I'm whining.

Now, now, mes amis,

I know some of you will be thinking something to say to me.

Don't worry.

I know what I'm doing.

And I know who I'm, don't I?

I just hope that my eldest brother will stay put and marry soon.

I don't give a damn about his girlfriend or future wife.

Just get married and be done with it.

Let my mother feels happy first, it's the most important thing.

So that she might won't keep urging me or my elder sister to get a partner.

Au revoir.